Tag: Poetry

Because I had to write something that wasn’t completely dark
Some would say, as the night sky
So I’ll leave you with some vaugely artistic or artistically vague quote
Referencing pop culture
No matter how known or obscure
Alluding to the times
And how I feel about them
I would say… vanilla sky

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Leaves fall from trees
Reminders of seasons we’ll never see
But for all the reasons we’ll never flee
We’ve made a home here, you and me
It’s where we met
It’s where we have family
It’s where you rested your head on my shoulder
The first time you said you love me
It’s where we can make a life when we get older
But today we’re still wild and free
Young at heart
Only beginning our journey
In your arms
Is the only place I have to be

And we can always travel
To the sights we’ve always wanted to see
Where there are four seasons
And not just humidity
Like last year
When we went to LA, Denver, and New York City
Like yesterday
I still remember seeing mountains beyond the sea
Fresh snow on top of peaks
As far as the eye could see
Buildings resting in clouds
Is all I could see
And on each trip
All of the secrets you confided in me
I’ll never forget
And like you, I’ll hold them closely


Leaves fall from trees
Reminders of seasons we’ll never see
But for all the reasons we’ll never flee
And you told me c’est la vie
And I said to you don’t ever leave
And so I said to you
Dark skies at night
Are not so bright
Without you here
It’s not that light
Staring into eyes
Where my pain dies
With you right here
You brighten skies


Leaves fall from trees
Reminders of seasons we’ll never see
But for all the reasons we’ll never flee
We’ve made a life here, you and me
But we could go anywhere
And I’d still be happy
We could go anywhere
As long as you’re right here with me
In the morning, waking up
And at night, fast asleep
We could go anywhere
As long as I’m right there with you

I still remember the night you met me
The temperature had dropped a few degrees
Below the sun, setting behind the trees
A chance encounter, like a scene in movies
Stars not visible in lit city streets
But I could see them shine so vividly
They were aligned by the moon and the sea
And your face was all I could care to see

No small talk was made except pleasantries
Then it was life passions genuinely
Discussing each other’s dreams and hobbies
Wanting to know desires sincerely
There was a chance you were the one for me
Not chance, it was known immediately
And before we knew it, between us
The temperature had risen a few degrees

Then it was all first dates, shy dances
And words whispered so quietly
Picking up on soft queues, sly glances
Is it mutual, each thought vulnerably
Then it was inside jokes, all smiles
The growing feelings, returned comfortably
Fulfilled by each other, all while
Loving in silence and laughing loudly


Leaves fall from trees
Reminders of seasons we’ll never see
But for all the reasons we’ll never flee
And you told me c’est la vie
And I said to you don’t ever leave
And so I said to you
Dark skies at night
Are not so bright
Without you here
It’s not that light
Staring into eyes
Where my pain dies
With you right here
You brighten skies


I sit with you here by my side
Thinking through all of the lost nights
Spent alone in wake and in search
In pain and in hurt
Loneliness is the worst
I was a shadow of a man
Living in a total wasteland
A world so barren and cracked
So empty and black
I’ll never go back

I sit with you here by my side
Thinking through all of the shared nights
Spent together in our search
Of for better or for worse
Knowing better will be forever, never worse
The silhouette of her hand
Holding a few k’s and band
With a fit and love so right
The world will never be empty and black
And I’ll never go back
And I say to you
With you right here
You brighten skies


She looked me in the eye
Her strawberry, long hair
Flowing over her vibrantly inviting eyes
I’m lost in this beautiful view
Swimming in those beautiful blues
She said let me take you down
Nothing is real
We can make this be forever

She looked me in the eye
Her strawberry, long hair
Flowing over her contently closing eyes
Not a worry in the cold world
But to be loved by this whole girl
She said you should hang around
Sitting in fields
We can live this life together


I sit with your photo by my side
Hoping it will get me through the night
But hope brings on pain
And pain won’t subside
To think that all of the past was nothing but lies
How you could throw away
The memories we shared
Like you never cared
Please come home and stay
I don’t know what else to say
But please come home and stay
‘Cause I don’t know what else to say

I sit with your photo by my side
Knowing you won’t be coming home tonight
The knowledge in vain
The veins bleeding pride
This is over is something I have to realize
It was for better or for worse
But the wrong one was never and the wrong one forever
All I can remember is when we met that fateful fall day
I know we’ve come to an end
But for our sake don’t pretend
And tell me you forgot about that day
And tell me you have nothing left to say
Tell me you forgot about that day
Tell me you have nothing left to say
And I say to myself
Without you here
It’s not that light


She looked me in the eye
Her strawberry, long hair
Flowed over her cautiously inviting eyes
I was lost in that beautiful view
Swimming in those beautiful blues
She said let me take you down
But nothing was real
We can’t make this be forever

She looked me in the eye
Her strawberry, long hair
Flowed over her violently closing eyes
All the worries of the whole world
Now remembered by this cold girl
She said you should hang around
Forgetting the fields
We can’t live this life together


But then he realized
Not all light was lost
The grass was still green
He still had his thoughts
None of it was lies
The beauty was real
Contained within dreams
And physical fields

Tangible
And touchable
He dreamed it all up

In his mind, she existed
Only in fantasy
But existing were the memories
Effortlessly
The beauty of the mountains, the skies,
The seas, and the fields
Imagined experiences
Made their beauty no less real

Touchable
And tangible
He dreamed them all up


Fall is here again
It reminds me of the seasons we’ll never see
And the reasons we’ll never be
The leaves falling from trees
But it’s okay, c’est la vie
Of course dark skies at night
Will never be bright
Without you here
It will be alright

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If this is the first post you’ve read,
And for some strange reason you’re still reading,
And for some weird reason you want to read more,
Read from the bottom post up.

| The dark skies came suddenly
| And they came fast
| For some reason eerily
| I knew they wouldn’t last
| The dark skies came suddenly
| And they came vast
| For some reason eerily
| I knew them from my past

| This time seemed different
| I was ready
| I didn’t know why
| But I was ready

| The dark-tinted glasses
| The vision that comes with
| No more heavy drinking from glasses
| The lie from the liar held within

| A fork in the road
| Each time I think about the future
| Continue down the same path
| Or better my own life

| When I can’t even write
| Poems that still rhyme
| What is the purpose of this life
| When I’m not even right

| I don’t know how I can be right
| Writing freestyle prose
| It rhymes in my head
| But what about my enemies, my friends, and my foes

| A redundancy on two out of the three
| But it’s okay, this is free write, and I’ll never be free
| Originally
| At least, I thought I’d try to flow
| By syllables, by life, by breaths between rows
| It’s all I could ever have wanted
| To be satisfied through life’s normal throes
| But it’s not for me, you’re not for me, maybe it’s for you

| The water flows by, like these words flow nigh
| Verging on the end

| I say the dark skies came suddenly
| And I say I knew they wouldn’t last

| I said so eerily, ’cause I knew it from my past
| But the answer this time, about how they won’t last
| I know the answer, from my future, it will come fast
| I’ve felt this knowledge, this knowing, this reason, this understanding, this so damn much
| No rhyme there, nothing deeper nor more vast
| That this storm will ever cast
| Than my understanding, that this time, it will be my last
| So my understanding wasn’t really from my past
| The dark skies come this time, not simply just to pass
| The dark skies come this time, largely just to be my last
| So that is why, this time, I know they will not last
| And so, I do not cry, as I know it will be my last

| It’s fine, this is all I could have wanted
| Everything is all I could have needed
| To be required, to be remembered, in the end it’s all the same
| I’m sure I will be, in mind, in spirit, or in just the name
| This is it, but I’m at peace, at peace with my shame
| My past, my guilt, my happiness, my life, my beauty, my ugly, my friendships, my memories, my hate, and my love
| It was enough, it was enough for a lifetime, enough that I don’t care to go above
| Fuck it, and fuck it, and fuck it all the same
| Maybe not all of us here are living in the same pain
| That I endure, be it chemical, or biological, or full
| I’m empty, I’m empty most of the time, empty with no hope
| Except for my friends, maybe that they won’t feel this same way
| My family, I hope that they don’t feel this same way
| God, I hope they don’t feel this way
| I hope I didn’t inherit it from them
| We fight the nature versus nurture all from within

| So with the last few lines to write
| As I get off in a fast fury
| I guess it’s time to go, off the rooftop, off the patio, off the balcony in a hurry
| It’s storming, it’s going, the rain and thunder and lightning
| To a normal person, they’d perfectly be frightening
| But to me there is no perfect, there is no nothing, there is no failure
| There’s no pain when you can’t fail
| And when you can’t fail, you can’t be perfect
| The impossible standards we hold ourselves to
| Or at least me, I hold myself to
| Why doesn’t this person like me
| Why did I fuck that up?
| Why did I fuck the past up?
| God I really fucked up
| God I’m really still going
| God I just can’t stop writing

| And God somehow I won’t stop living
| I fucked up hard, not really in today, not really in tonight
| And that’s the deepest, darkest secret of depression, is there really is no bite
| No trigger, no gun, no sudden, no fun
| Hell, you could be having fun, when you come home and you realize all of a sudden you’ve got a trigger on a gun
| Simply why I don’t own a gun
| Simply why I don’t have one
| Those voices would creep in
| All of a sudden
| And I know I’d be gone, like how I want to be off the balcony
| The rooftop, but not the patio, not high nor low enough to go
| Like the rollercoaster of a life
| Of this life
| Of this show
| That I didn’t want to be a part of
| But fuck, I don’t want to go
| And if I do, people will look and think and say
| Hey, why was he so depressed, why’d he do it, why was he that way
| What could we have done differently, what differently could we say
| And that’s the problem, that’s the issue with today
| Let’s just talk about it
| Let’s just talk before I go away
| And it’ll be okay
| Don’t motherfucking tell me it’ll be okay
| Don’t you dare say it’ll be okay
| You liar, you bastard, you had no idea about today
| Or tomorrow, or the future, fuck the past – it was yesterday
| It’ll be over soon enough, 2 million years and we’ll be here for the day
| A minute percentage, yet we feel so important every day
| Unless we’re down, who’s all down? Will it just be for today?
| The dark skies roll around
| Will this be the last time they come
| Will it be the last time for me
| Will it be the last storm for the world
| I don’t know
| But it will be for me